I'm tired

I'm tired of not being myself.
I'm tired of pretending that I'm very independant while I'm missing my home.
I'm tired of thinking previous memories when I want to look forward.
I'm tired of wanting to look on the bright side of life while I am actually becoming more and more pessimistic.
I'm tired of seeing people here.
I'm tired of pretending nothing has happened while there're indeed problems exist.
I'm tired to remain smiling when I don't feel like to.
I'm tired to start a conversaion when I don't want to.
I'm tired to keep everything in mind.
I'm tired to keep working when I want to just take a break.
I'm even tired of Disney now...

I guess I'm just tired of the endless assignments....
I need a vacation!