Chen Chia Chun

I hate being a typical Virgo...

I hope it's that I'm thinking too much.

There's always a reason for God letting something happened or had me waited for His response.

I feel like my faith is getting weaker and weaker while I want to be stronger and stronger.

I'm keeping myself as busy as I can and trying to believe that God always keeps His promise.

But I'm kind of tired and exhausted.

There're a lot of things waiting for me to plan for but I kept thinking what I shouldn't have been thinking.

Told me to give more credit but silence made me scared.

Trying to think that I'm finally the one what God would have the best plan for.

Here's from the drama I like to watch lately 'If God let we meet each other, then there must be something God wants me to do for you.' So... what's the purpose of that?

The book I read lately keeps my mind occupied thinking the relations between the words in the book and my religion. I don't know if they can both exist in my belief or the book is acturally against what I've always been believing as God's words. That drives me crazy though. I don't even know what I should do and pray know. Positive or negative, ask from God or myself. The book is acturally a gift from my Spanish class for being the best estudiante, but now, I kind of hope I've never read that book.

Today's the worst day I've ever had for such a long time. Last time was 7 years ago I believe, but the difference is that I had no tears last time.

God, I need peace and calm and more credit, please...

How many of my balloons would be left out of five of which one has been gone and kept deeply in my heart already?