Merry Christmas

I've been looking forward for this day for such a long time... since my winter break had started one month ago. However, when this day really comes, I don't really feel particular excited or happy. Instead, some weird feelings just come up of my mind. I guess every sign shows to me that it's better to just hold fewest expectation so life would seem easier and happier. Maybe this is the last break I could be so relaxing, care of nothing else but just enjoy eating and sleeping all the time. After this break, first, I'll have to deal with other several classes, assignments. Then, there comes the dissertation, the most struggling part of all my studies.... After all this, the worst part comes! I'm going to face the real world- getting a job!!!! Which means stop depending on my parents, no money support from my parents anymore, and I'll have to give them money instead.... So even though I'm looking forward to finally finishing all my studies, I'm either afraid the coming of that day. It's a shame that ay my age, I'm still spending my parents' money while most of my friends are now supporting themselves. Next year is coming in a few days, am I ready for the new challenges? I don't know. maybe.. probably... I guess...