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Being thinking too much is not a good phenomenon...
If everything goes as we have expected, then we'll always have enough time after, and we can finally worry nothing. That's such a positive and pleasent thinking. Maybe that's the only motivation for me to go through these days, months lately. However, this motivation is getting weaker and weaker, seems like it's fading away day by day. 'What if it doesn't go as I expected?' There are always so many variables all the time, no need to mention how many variables there will be within serveral months. My confidence is getting fewer and fewer with my expextation. Maybe it's just like my friend said, 'Less expectation, less disappointment'. Whenever it seems like I'm talking to myself, I told myself to pray and leave everything to God who always has the best plan for me. There's always a reason for something, and there's always no reason for something, I'm not the one who can control everything and everyone.
If things don't go as we expect, maybe last time was the really the last time. I can still remember every scene, contact and converstion between us clearly. That's such a woeful thought.
Well, life is full of mysteries, if you take out the mystery, you take out hope. Yeah.. probably. So, I wish my life is full of hope, I wish and I pray.