Could never imagine how lucky I was

It's such a long story yet I've never suferred in my life. Living here definately gave me lots of difference experiences. I'd never think that I'd be pullovered becuase of speeding, yet I did, badly, even I had the detector. Everyone said that I was so lucky, only got a warning when I was driving 15 mph more than the sign. The GM told me 'See, everyone likes you, even the police officer. You're such a lucky girl". But I guess I was just good at playing innocent like all the other girls do. Like Big S's sweet smile in the Taiwanese drama. When Jackie gives her biggest sweetest smile, how could a person not be touched! Ha.
I didn't realized how lucky I was until everyone told me so since I didn't drive back in Taiwan and of course didn't know how serious it could be to drive that fast.
Well, to be honest, instead of thinking I should drive slower, I really think I should save my money and buy a nice car. Mini Cooper S is a good choice except I don't have enough money for that.
But I take this as a sign that God wants to tell me- how lucky I am now.
Thank God- I didn't burn my house yesterday that I almost did. Shame on myself who already got a Chinese Chef license are still useing Microwave a lot-and didn't know how to use it properly. When seeing my apartment full of smoke when I got out of the bathroom, I felt like I survived again from the warning.
I don't know how to explain my feelings of all what've been happening lately, but I'd just say Thank God...

I'm coming!

Sisters, you folks got to wait for me this time. I already missed the New York trip.
Count me in this time! Yes, yes, yes! Time to Travel! a continent that I've never been.
Australia~ I'm coming!

The Tennessee River

Having been thinking a lot lately,
Having been searching for a bunch of things lately,
I'm losing my direction, I'm losing my patience, and I'm losing my mind.
Sitting next to the Tennesse River talking to my friend, talking about how we ended up being in Knoxville, Tennesse- a place, a town we've never heard before. The reason my friend's here was becuase she wants to travel. The reason I'm here, hmm... I don't know. Maybe becuase I wanted to run away from the real world. But seems I'm getting deeper and deeper to the real world.
I don't even though if I still like my life here anymore.
Looking at my Taiwanese friend's picture-where she took on her vacation to Bali island with her family. Oh, man... I don't even know when can be the next time I can just take a vacation with my parents. Seems I'm too old to miss my parents, but I do though. I hope one day I wake up, I'd just find that Bagel's sleeping next to me on my bed in my own sweet room in Taiwan. And I don't even mind my mom yelling at me in the morning and ask me to clean my room.
I think I need more courage here, to make some decisions, to plan for my future, or even to go further to the future.
I guess I just saw too muuch Taiwanese dramas which made me homesick.
Still got 10 more months , or I can say, only 10 more months left for me to enjoy my life here.
The weather's hot, but the trees and flowers are beautiful. I either like and dislike summer, just like I either like and dislike here.