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Let me think... If I worked on my dissertation just as frequent as I post on my blog, I would have finished my D work...Forgive me, I have to keep talking about my D work so that I won't forget its existence...

Anyway, I've been talking a lot with my mom lately, convincing her to let me work in the U.S, convincing her to let me bring Bagel to our trip and also to the U.S, convincing her not to get angry from my uncle, etc.

Mom has been so sensitive since my young aunt married to my uncle and got me a new cousin who is 23 years younger than me. I seem more like an aunty Jackie than cousin Jackie now. Oh, once I went to a pet shop with my second youngest cousin, the shop keeper asked me surprisedly if I could afford to have a big dog since I got a kid at home. Well, seems like she guessed I was my cousin's mother. Fine! I'm used to it. Back to the topic, my mom has been so sensitive since then, everything she talks implies that I'm old enough to get married or have babies. However, in some way, I know she's contradictious to her own thoughts as well. Imagine, if I told her I"m getting married now, she'd slap me right away and say how much they've spend on me to get me being successful on my career, then how could I just run away with a guy. I said so since she's warned me a lot of not running away and abandon them. But on the other hand, she wants to be a grandmother! She wants to take care of her grandson when she's still young enough to. Not only her but also my aunts.

Sometimes, I'm glad I don't have any brothers or sisters to be compared to, even though, I still get 9 cousins from my mom's side (To those who don't know, cousins from my dad side are all in the U.S. and I haven't seen them or heard from them for years) Okay, for those 9 cousins, two of them started dating with their opssite sex since their high schools. It might sound normal to some people, but for our family, it's the first case. And both of the two belongs to the same aunt. So for their oldest cousin Jackie, other aunts start putting pressures on her. " I know you're doing pretty well on your school work and your couins lost you in that area, but you know, you're getting old, you should.. you should...." Sometimes, it's really hard to know what they're thinking, and how fast they would change their mind. The same with my mom. Once she said to me that I should bring Bagel with me to the U.S., next second when I asked her if I really could, she replied "Bring your head!" (In Chinese, that's not a very good word) Sigh... I don't understand what are all the mothers thinkings...

Speaking to the babies. I've once read an article said that if you had a dog, it costs you 30,300 USD to take care of your dog for its whole life. And if you got a baby, it costs you 303,030 USD to take care of them until they finish their education in Taiwan. So since I don't want to have any baby, I'm potentially quite richer than other potential mothers now. So, mom, sorry, the only thing you can do now is taking care of Bagel, or taking care or other people's babies. Will I run away? I don't have the answer now since there's still something I have to make sure of and search for. But don't worry, at least it won't happen at least when I'm still hanging around abroad.