11-6

There're so many decisions to make lately and seems like people are so interested in my decision which makes me want to be a silent girl again. A silent girl, sounds imposible to my friends in Taiwan. Instead of a silent girl, I guess I've been as a mean girl lately, actually a mean lady. Even when I went to play Lazer Tag my friends, their target would be me. Come-on, you got your job, I got my job. and I hate people being lazy though. I admit tat I'm a lazy girl when I'm off from work. Always just being in bed, messy room with no space to walk, clothes eveywhere, bottles everywhere. It's probably a good thing that I'm not living with my mom now otherwise she'd be so pissed of at my messy room.
Just in one week, I feel like I just became 10 year older. Maybe I should check if I got any white hair right now. Am I too serious of my life?! But I think I'm the type that don't care about nothing.
Back to the decisions, I'm just too lazy to deal with them lately, or maybe I'm too afriad to just think about them. Maybe I should just draw a map of the ways I can do and analyze which would be the best for me. That doesn't sound like what I used to do. I used to just..... go ahead do whatever I want no matter what. Yeah... I guess I was crazy. Or maybe I did grow up since I started working. I do think and consider more now. Maybe I've become too much like a business person. no good, no good...
I wish I could have some Mooney's crazy courage back to make up my mind...
Now...I just feel that... my legs are so hurt... from the Lazer tag game, but turely, it's fun. Funnest thing I've ever done in Knoxville...